Patient Hope in New Snow – Bright Eyes | #notthemamawho

Let’s make this easy and let time pass, as devotion dies,
The list goes on and on
I have waited and I will be waiting for the pain to cure the fear…

 

I love a fresh snow. {Especially one like this!}

kansas is lovely in the snow

Instantly, all my grumpiness about the cold temperatures is gone. Apparently, that’s not true for everyone.

toddler kansas winter big snow dayI too would probably be unhappy if my dad had thrown me into a snow drift and I was bundled too tightly to sit up on my own. Finny didn’t seem to mind the midget-tossing though.

Westie, snow day, kansas winter

Our awesome neighbor brought over his snow-blower and saved us {BJ} hours’ worth of shoveling. He also provided toddler {and mama} entertainment and some lovely photos.

snow blower kansas winter with sun flareSnow is my rainbow. It’s my promise that the storm is over and we can begin again.

Writing about your own life is an interesting thing. You have to decide what to share and what to keep to {for} yourself. I debated {and continue to question} whether or not to share our personal struggles. For now, I’ll tell you that we hope to have another child soon, and that I have many fears. Jenna Rammell of Small Fry Blog  {one of my favorite kiddo sites!} recently wrote to me, “…we know that fear and faith cannot reside in the same place so we have to try diligently to replace all the fear with that much more faith!” Her words about her own struggle with loss and grief, and her words of comfort to me are so wise. She’s one kick-ass chick.

I’ve heard it said that adding someone to your life means you have to “make room” in your heart. I don’t believe that. I don’t have to clear out space in order to have more love, I think my heart just grows. I’m ready for my heart to grow again, but if it doesn’t, it’s already full to the brim. Whatever happens next, I am so grateful for this little booger.Cute toddler in the snow winter motherhood

Eventually, I hope to be able to be completely open about our experiences. I am #notthemamawho is fearless in any way yet, but I’m working on it. I’m working to have faith in myself and faith in you guys. For now, I’m going to go play in the snow, and fear nothing {but potential frostbite}! What are you afraid of? hunter boots style winter snow

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One thought on “Patient Hope in New Snow – Bright Eyes | #notthemamawho

  1. I love the snow photos, and that first photo of your son in the snow reminds me so much of a Christmas Story! As someone that didn’t grow up in a cold climate, I always thought that movie was exaggerating the little kid’s outfit. Apparently not!

    I understand how hard it is to share some parts of your life on the web. I am actually very private online, and only share very few personal things. I feel like sometimes it is a very cathartic experience to put some of your thoughts online, and to get feedback and support from friends and people you don’t really know IRL. But some things, still feel better to just keep it to that real life talk with friends. It’s a balance, but we have to accept that technology and sharing things online is part of our lives now, and if you try it all out now, when your kids are older, you’ll be better prepared to talk to them about it, and how technology and the internet will affect their lives, they will grow up in a completely different world than the one we grew up in.

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